I’m sad ….

The pain that you feel is at times so overwhelming it’s like a concrete block on your chest.

There’s no point in trying to explain it or rationalize its intensity.

Nobody will understand that feeling when you realize just how little you matter to the world in general, how much you are taken for granted and how, what you need really doesn’t amount to a hill of beans.

How you want to just sit in a corner and cry – quiet, burning intense tears. No drama, no hysteria, just you and your tears.

But you can’t because you have to cope, you have to be the calm one, you have to do and be successful.

You see because in your controlled, ordered life the little things are not allowed to matter. You are supposed to be above caring about whether they remember your special days and moments. You are renowned for your “rhino hide” and your ability to let the mundane go over your head.

But it’s all a show you see, it’s all a farce and some days it matters – like today


5 thoughts on “I’m sad ….

  1. We all matter Linda: in one way or another. I enjoy your tweets, your posts and your superb photoghraphs. So even though I don’t know you: you do matter to me.
    Wishing you some peace.

  2. Me too. You’re a bright spark in my day: I put something out there and there you are in the cybersphere, being you 🙂 I have watched others respond on Twitter too, several; your warm style envelops them. I can only conclude that your real life persona is similar, and there are people around you who would say precisely the same thing.

    It is enervating when you are seen to be the one who can carry anything; when folks take the rock you are for granted. Whatever special day it is today -birthday? Anniversary? I hope things improve, because you deserve more, much more, than this.

  3. We may always be ticked off one way or the other. Times like this, we may want to think of what William Shakespeare wrote in his famous novel, The Taming of the Shrew: “…and frame your mind to mirth and merriment, which bars a thousand harms and lengthens life.” I hope this day will give you enough reasons to smile. 🙂

  4. There is a point in trying to explain how you feel or communicating it to those that aren’t mind readers – tell them how you feel! People will understand. Crying is good! I was thinking about this the other day – that when we are sad and finding it hard to cope, that it is hard for others to work it out – they may just think we have a headache or something – but if there was a signal or sign that we had that showed them it was serious – like a birthmark on our face that glows bright red when we’ve had enough, pink when we are getting there, yellow when all is well etc., I think that would be good 😉 Big hug from downunder xo

  5. I’m sorry you’re sad. Sadness comes, doesn’t it? To a certain extent it is unavoidable. Sometimes I fear the clouds will never leave the sky. I hope you feel better soon. Sending you a big smooch and just as many hugs xxx

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