Alzheimers – my mother-in-law has recently been diagnosed with the disease. A bitter and twisted woman on a good day has now transformed into a forgetful, paranoid, bitter and twisted woman – it’s a dreadful situation. My 80 something father in law remains stubborn about accepting help and continues to deteriorate on a daily basis with stress and exhaustion. DH’s siblings are all out of the country and continue to proffer thoroughly useless advice. DH is at a loss as to what else to do and we have settled on providing moral and logistical support to his father as best we can.
My best friend lent me a dvd to watch the other day called The Notebook and despite my initial misgivings (romantic love stories are not really my thing) it turned out to be a wonderfully warm and loving film with huge relevance to the current mental health issues in our immediate circle. Watching the inconsistencies and uncertainties manifest themselves in the lead character was like an obscene snapshot of life in DH’s family home – it brought me to tears, often!
And walking a familiar route, when disgruntled and discombobulated, I must populate a bit of paper with a whirlpool of unco-ordinated thoughts ……………………………
“The plate lay shattered on the floor, food scattered everywhere
The silence surrounded them, a cloud of confusion swept through her eyes
She was afraid,
He could see that, her lip starting to tremble as she turned to flee
My love, he said, dont leave me
She started at the sound of his voice,
Who are you, she said, her voice rising hysterically with the coming storm.
Where am I, her head twisted from side to side, eyes wide with terror
Jen, he groaned, its me we’re at home my darling
And then, she was gone
The girl with the honey brown eyes and generous laugh,
His lifetime companion,
Stared through him and she started to scream.”
~ xxx ~